A deeply introspective person with a penchant for research, religious services, performance arts and investigation. I am an immigrant with two immigrations, high school education in a private Orthodox school and a history of self-search and learning.
I have left my home early to pursue a budding interest in social and spiritual research, and self-development. I always knew that something was off, and though it took me years to accept the fact I was transsexual and gay, I finally did it.
I have mostly spent my time gathering and hunting information on religions (ancient, traditional, tribal and ethnic), experiencing various facets of performance arts, absorbing information and learning about the world. I will speak on that a bit later.
I have a skill in creativity: don't we all? No. Not all of us do. Just like not all of us are born lawyers, not all of us are born organizers, and not all of us are born artists. Not even everyone can be made into ANYTHING. This brings me to my next important point: I believe in various talents and abilities and inclinations. Certain people are better off doing certain type of work, not other.
Activism & Interests?
Since my early age, I was heart and mind dedicated to history, religion and performance arts. Though 'Westerner' for many, I have a strong Asian, Eastern, ancient and unsual backgrounds and bloods to create a different mode of learning and expression. In the west today when you say you like history, people expect you to spew forth facts about Napoleonic conquest, French Revolution or ancient formation of Persian Empire. Your love and knowledge of history doesn't always take such form. If you are a kinesthetic person you will learn and know things in your body, through sensing them, through picking them up through the air. Just like any other method of learning, audio, kinesthetic and non-book system of learning are effecient and effectual. Just like a writer of a book can make things up and just claim truth of those things he or she has invented, so can a person who is kinesthetic but has a poorly schooled and maintained system, pick up false facts and information. But just like a well taught student checks the origins of the writer and his background before trusting what is said in the book, a person well trained, taught and in balance with his subtle and other bodies, will learn with his audio, and kinesthetic skill very well. The West is blind to such simple logical follow ups, and I am not sure why but I suspect intention.
So as I said, history, ancient lore (occult, wicca, earth and star religions, etc), religion and religious services, and performance dance all have and had a paramount importance to me. I always wanted to dance, but it was not acceptable to a family of struggling immigrants. Those of you who have immigrant origins will understand when they read this: our parents want us to get 'real' and 'tangible' JOBS not learn to 'shake like a monkey'. Unfortunately many immigrant families hold this opinion on the most sacred art of Dance and performance arts. It is understood in our families, that performance arts and religion study are a LUXURY for American born natives...
It is quiet rare for a working family to have a child in the arts, and who is successful at that, especially without any support on their part in that endeavour. Naturally it took me long years to first learn about myself and that I was queer, and transsexual, then learn about the faith that most appealed to me, and then accept the fact that I had to dance, work with stage and create, perform and direct performances. For a long time I fought with myself, feeling a deep seated sense of FAILURE for having deceived my family's expectations of becoming a lawyer, a doctor or a successful businessman. I still feel guilt, a strong sense of 'oi vei what have I done!' type of a thing, which is very hard to get rid of. I decided that the only way the feeling will go away is if I start on my path, and pray for my parents' understanding and acceptance. Even God advises us to pursue our dreams, if they are honest, true and with desire to help and benefit humanity.
So studying performance arts, directing, religion (Hinduism after a long struggle, I could not take the gender dichotomy and the constant citations of my parents in regards to homosexuality and transsexuality. ) makes me not only happy, it shows in progress. I retain religious studies well, I am able to apply them, what else is needed in life but a niche of one's own? Moreover, I am a born dancer. My body, frame, nature, shape are all designed to be a vessel for divine energy and vibrations and a form to manifest those. Movement, music, sacred chanting, historical understanding and knowledge and seeing my vision and hope on stage, performed, conveyed, changing lives, changing the world, making it a better, more spiritual, more moral place.
I admire many artists and directors, but my main goal is create something completely of my own, to see what centuries of breeding and exchange from the Eastern European lands have created. I find it indispensable as a contribution to the world culture and growth